My Story
I was
born to my parents, Lydia Martha Morgan (Scotch-Irish, Roman Catholic) and
William Joseph Gosy (German, Lutheran).
Their compromise religion was to go to no church at all. In 1976 I changed the spelling from “Gosy”
back to the original name “Goss”—no one could pronounce “Gosy” correctly”. My mother was a strikingly good-looking woman
who looked almost exactly like Marylyn Monroe.
My Father was 5’7” tall, had his nose broken and flattened, and was a
bouncer at the Silver Frolics in Cicero, IL in the 20’s—he “loved to fight,
break other men’s noses, and make them cry.”
He also loved Al Capone—he had nothing to do with guns, but he did hang
around with “the boys”—I guess it made him feel important. My German grandfather loved Adolf Hitler, so
you can see; it was a tough environment to grow up in. When my father became too old to be a
bouncer, he went to work in the kitchen at the Sherman Hotel (known for Don
McNeal’s Breakfast Club on the radio) which was also controlled by “the
boys.” Because there was no TV and night
shows back then, many of the Hollywood stars would go from hotel show to hotel
show, plugging their movie or their act—of course, the mafia was operating at
most of the hotels.
With the
help of his former associates at the Silver Frolics, etc., my father quickly
moved up in his job, becoming the Executive Chef at the Sherman Hotel, and
becoming influential in Chicago politics. Once when I got into a fight in a
strip joint in Cicero and was in serious trouble, he had one of his friends
contact Henry Crowne, who owned the Empire State Building in NY and Material
Service in Chicago, have the lawsuit and charges dropped. My father made a fighter out of me. With his provoking me, I was in many street
fights and bragged for years that I set the fastest knockout record in a high
school boxing program which I entered. I
also had my nose broken several times and had it fixed. In my 30’s I got into a fight with a man that
was 6’3”, an ex-captain in the marines (Viet Nam), and played tight-end at
Rutgers. I definitely did not win the
fight, but with my uppercut, he went down on his knees. He later said that was the hardest any man
had ever hit him and added that he used to fight black guys in New York. You can see that I am still in the “tough-guy
mentality.”
Because my
father was an ex-Lutheran and my mother was an ex-Catholic, their compromise in
religion was to go to no church, but they did say the Lord’s Prayer every night
before going to sleep. I know this
because their room was next to mine and I heard them say the prayer. Perhaps it was guilt, but they did send my
older sister and me to a Catholic grammar school. My sister did fair at the school, but I
didn’t fare so well. From the third
grade on, when I would do something wrong, the nuns would keep me after school
and whip me with a pointer. One of the
nuns, I believe it was in the third grade or fourth grade, would take my pants
down, including my underwear, and whip my bare bottom. I do not remember being sexually molested,
but later I heard from other sources that the sex organ of an eight-or
nine-years old boy is excited from a bare whipping. When my sister graduated from the school, my
mother took me out of the Catholic grammar school and had me placed in Canty
Public school. My mother never admitted
it, but I believe that she thought something very strange was going on at the
Catholic School. I do remember the name
of the offending nun, but she is long time dead and it would be useless to name
her now. Maybe my mother heard something
from one of the other parents.
In my
teenage years sex, was as it would be expected, a problem. I was not gay but came close. I was also accused of being responsible for
the pregnancy of a girl by the name of Betty.
I very well could have been guilty of the birth of her twins, but
apparently my father paid someone off and Betty denied ever having sex with
me. I carried a heavy burden about Betty
for many years and have prayed for her every day for at least 35 years and
twice hired investigators to find her, with no results.
My father
did not believe in education beyond the 10th grade, and when I was a
senior, he said that if I wanted a car, I had to work for it. So, he had me hired at the Sherman Hotel (a
forty-minute drive from our house one way) to work Monday through Friday, from
4:00 pm to 12:00 am. By the time I got
home after work it was at least 1:00 am.
I found that drinking a beer or two made me fall asleep faster.
Consequently, when I got up to go to school at 7:00 am in the morning, I had 6
hours of sleep and a hangover. Needless
to say, I did not do well in that year.
In fact, I flunked out of high school in my senior year and joined the
USAF. At the time I did not realize that
I had a drinking problem and got into some serious trouble in the Air Force in
Madison Wisconsin. But God was looking
out for me. It is stated in the GMC list
that God stepped in and saved me in a most beautiful and humorous way (see
first page GMC#1 Colonel Klink Story).
By the time I finished my first tour in the Air Force, June of 1962,
Jesus had helped me obtain my high school diploma, be nominated to the Air
Force Academy, and attain the level of junior at the University of Wisconsin,
Madison with a ‘B’ average. The Air
Force wanted me to go to the Academy, but I elected to be separated from the
service and graduate from Wisconsin, which I eventually did.
In my last
two years as an enlisted man, I made friends with Larry Jarrett, a young man
from Atlanta, Georgia. Larry had joined
the USAF because he was the eldest of his family, his father was dead, and
there were three other children that needed financial help at home. Larry had given up a scholarship at The
University of Georgia as quarterback and the promise he would be first
string. We became very close friends—he
eventually asked me to be the best man at his marriage. Many an afternoon we threw a football back
and forth to each other—you could actually hear the threads whistle when he
threw the ball to you. I only got
careless once when playing catch with Larry and the ball hit me below the
belt. We would work out for hours,
playing catch, and I got better and better with throwing a football. I became so good that AXE, one of the
fraternities rushed me so that I would be the quarterback of their team. They were having a big game with the Lambda
Xi’s (Wisconsin Football team) and wanted me to win the big game for them. I found out later that our fraternity’s baseball
team had beaten Lambda Xi’s baseball team and used a wringer. What made it worse was our guys on the
baseball team would not leave it alone—they kept razzing the other guys until
they were furious—not smart to get the University of Wisconsin’s football team
mad at you. Of course, we lost the
football game, but it seemed like I was the only player that wasn’t
injured—there was a broken nose on one guy and assorted injuries to other
players.
Unfortunately,
after getting my honorable discharge, four things happened: First, Father Reuter, the priest who had
taken me under his wing, moved back to his home in Atlanta, second, I stopped
getting personal counseling, third, I stopped going to church, and fourth, I started
drinking again. Within a month I was
hooked by a very sexy girl that was impressed with my academic and military
success. She looked the other way when
it came to my drinking, and we became very active sexually. By the end of the summer we were engaged, her
parents were delighted, and we became married the following August, when I
became a senior at Wisconsin. After we got married, things began to become very
dicey. Her father who, was in and out of
AA, started finding valid things wrong with me, and being the alcoholic coward
that I was, I took it out on her. The
drinking and the fights went on and got worse, even after I graduated from
Wisconsin.
Things went
from bad to worse. I decided to go back
into the Air Force to become the pilot that I always wanted to be. Talking to a recruiter, he said that with my
record I would be a natural in the Air Force.
Going back into the military in OTS, Officers Training School, I was
told that I would become a pilot upon graduating OTS. My flight instructor, Captain Griffin, was an
ROTC graduate from Ohio
State. Since the school that I graduated
from was Madison Wisconsin (two rival schools in the Big Ten), there was no
love lost between the two of us.
Thinking that the whole school was there to make me a pilot, and having
two rows of ribbons, of course it was natural for me to make fun of Griffin’s one ribbon for longevity and
spread some of the humor to my classmates.
Evidently, someone in the training flight told Griffin about my making
him a point of humor, what with his being a lowly ROTC officer and only having
one longevity ribbon, while I was a “mustang,” had two rows of ribbons, and was
nominated to the Air Force Academy. At
about halfway through the training program we were sent out to the firing
range. I felt confident because I had
already qualified as an expert in rifle and pistol as an enlisted man. Griffin was there to monitor his flight and
when I finished my shooting, Griffin had a big smile on his face and yelled:
“Goss, you missed the target entirely.”
I said, “I don’t think so.” He
yelled to have my target sent in to be examined. When the target came into us, one of the
referees yelled: “Wow! That is some
shooting!” All my shots were in a tight
cluster in the middle of the bull’s eye.
I was awarded an oak leaf (an additional medal) for being an
expert—Griffin, standing there with his one longevity medal, was livid. My smiling at all my classmates who witnessed
the incident did not help matters at all.
Really, I probably should not have been surprised when upon graduation
from OTS, I was turned down for flight school—Griffin was happy the whole week
before and after selections were made. I
was furious. What did getting along with
a ROTC, one-ribbon officer, have to do with flying a $2,000,000 fighter plane?
After
graduating from OTS, I got my orders to report to Grand Forks, AFB ND. I was to be a Nuclear Launch Officer. That is right, the guy with the key to a nuclear
megaton missile. But I was still the
mustang, who was nominated to the Air Force Academy with two rows of ribbons
and the hottest lieutenant on the base.
Who else should be the one to hold the key that could annihilate a city
in seconds? After a Wing party one night
I was arrested for DUI and the senior officers were outraged; I believe that
they thought I did it to get out of Nuclear Weapons and get back into
flying. Whatever they thought, they made
my life a living hell for the next year.
I decided to get out of the USAF because they had tricked me and I was
going to sue them. When they offered me
an honorable discharge, I grabbed it and ran—I should have looked at the fine
print—they wrote a nasty note on my discharge which is now forbidden.
My first job
was at The American National Bank in Chicago as a programmer. As an employee there, I quickly got into a
fight at of all places, the Silver Frolics in Cicero, and the bouncer broke his
wrist when he swung at me and hit the brick wall behind me when I ducked—it
made the papers. The bank was very upset about the newspaper’s story of the
incident, and I was given a warning—they were waiting to see what happened in
court. The bouncer had decided to sue me
for damages and my father got his boys working.
When we showed up in the Cicero Court, the judge laughed and said,
“Nick, you ought to be ashamed of yourself, a big man like you, coming into
court and suing a little guy like this.
Case dismissed.” So, the bank was
placated for a while. But for only 3
more weeks, because I punched the bosses’ favorite programmer at the Christmas’
party and he went over the back of a couch with blood flying all over the white
carpeting of the bosses’ girlfriend—he had to get 11 stiches over his left eye. I was told to never darken the door at The
American National Bank again—even as a customer.
Was my
father mad? Hell no! He was proud of his little sissy boy who had
a college degree from a supposedly great college in the United States. He went right out and got me a job at
Material Service, where his very close friend Pat Hoy, who used to be the
President of the Sherman Hotel, had now become the president of Material
Service, which was owned by Henry Crowne, who owned the Empire State Building
in New York—they were all friends. A
short story on Henry Crowne. While I was
working at Material Service, I was looking out the window at Washington and
Franklin when one of our nine-yard trucks flew around the corner and tipped
over (the driver was obviously drunk)—there was cement everywhere. I said to my boss, “Well, that driver is
gone.” He said, “Guess again. Material Service is the only cement outfit
that Richard J. Daly will allow downtown.
Material Service is the only cement outfit that Daly will sign a
contract with.” I believed him, because
I once worked in the real estate department of Material Service and Richard M
Daly, the mayor’s son, worked in the Material Service real estate department. It is a fact that when things got slow at
Material Service, Henry Crowne, sold it to General Dynamics, I believe the
figure was 2 billion dollars. Henry
Crowne bought back Material Service from General Dynamics four years later for
25 cents on the dollar, because Henry Crowne did not sell the Chicago contracts
to General Dynamics. Within two years
Material Service was strangling because they could not drive downtown like all
the cement companies. The stories of Pat
Hoy, Henry Crowne, and Richard J Daly go on and on. Also, Richard M Daly eventually became the
mayor of Chicago.
Being bored
and remembering my thoughts of suing the Air Force for several complaints, I
decided to follow up on becoming a lawyer and learning the law. I told my mother and my father, who was still
proud of my hitting the guy at the Silver Frolics, and at the Christmas party,
talked to some of his friends and had A.J. Foyt the four-time winner of the
Indy 500 was my sponsor to Kent College of Law, Chicago. I enrolled in Kent and did well at the law
school. I was the first student in the
history of the law school to have two legal briefs put on display in the Law
Library. Unfortunately, this went to my
head and I decided that Ginger was not good enough for me and blamed her for
all our problems. Because I had been
elected the President of the local Jaycees and took the credit for our winning
the blue-chip award of the state, and everything was going in my favor. I promptly committed adultery with a
neighbor’s wife. I then proceeded to get into an altercation (almost physical)
with one of my lawyer-teachers at law school. Being put on probation, and in
fear that the other teachers would be laying for me, I resigned from law
school. I honestly believe that I lost
my career because of drinking and the resulting adultery.
After
dropping out of law school, I decided to get a master’s degree in math from
Loyola University, Chicago. On my very
best behavior I applied for and received a fellowship at Loyola—for a semester
I received good grades at the master’s level.
My advisor had his PhD in math from the University of Chicago (at that
time ranked first in the nation). The strange thing is that my advisor loved me
and used me for an entire semester to teach set theory to the students under a
fellowship. As it turned out, when I
graduated, two of the other students in our class refused to go to Commencement
because I had the highest average at the master’s level.
Because I
was “extremely clever and intelligent,” I decided to build a house from a library
book. Anyone who does well in law school
and gets a master’s degree with the highest grades should be able to build a
house with half-way decent plans.
Believe it or not Ginger went along with the idea and helped me
physically build a rather nice home in the Wisconsin woods on 2 ½ acre lots
that I bought from one of the locals.
He was a friend of the pastor and he charged us $2,000 (a little alcohol
lubricated the deal). Whether she hates
me now or not, whether she holds resentment or not, I have to give her
credit. She was willing to help when it
came to hard work. She handled those 16”
blocks like a construction worker. By
the way, there were 1600 of those blocks that we laid for the foundation. When the house was finished and I could not
get a job in the area, I went on a television show to appeal to all the people
of Green Bay Wisconsin for a teaching job and got it. I got the job at the Northeast Wisconsin
Technical Institute, teaching math and data processing. I will do some serious bragging here. We sold the house in Glendale Heights, IL for
$24,000. When we sold the house that we
built in Wisconsin, it sold for $28,000—it turned out quite nice—it was 2 ½
acres of woods and it had seven beautiful white birch trees in the front yard.
I taught at
Northeast Wisconsin Technical Institute for about three years. It was an old reformatory converted into a
legitimate school—many people thought that it did not get any better than the
reformatory that it used to be. One of
the other instructors advised me to roll up some magazines to use as a weapon
with some of the bad students. It was
while I was working at NWTI (during summer vacation) that in a drunken rage I
shot and killed my dog and threatened Ginger with the gun, pulling the trigger. If one of the bullets had not have gone off
in the dog, you would not be reading this right now. When I shared what I did at the next AA
meeting, after the meeting one of the guys stopped me and said: “I have been
watching you come in and out of these meetings for about 2 ½ years, and I think
I can help you. Who do you call your
Higher Power?” I said, “Jesus.” He said, “Why don’t you ask Jesus to help you
accept that you are an
alcoholic and not just admit it?” I walked away from that meeting really angry
and thought to myself, “Who does that guy think he is, a counselor?” Although at the time I was angry, I did start
praying to accept that I am an alcoholic, and funny things started
happening. For example, one night at
2:00 am I was out with my latest girlfriend and had her laughing like
crazy. Suddenly, this crazy thought went
through my mind: “If you can get her laughing like crazy while you are drunk,
why can’t you get her laughing while you are sober?” I thought: “Where did that come from?”
One month
later, on June 29, 1973, I woke up with an incredible hangover. To pass the time I started watching the Phil
Donahue Show on WGN TV and Donahue’s guest was a psychiatrist who was talking
about alcoholism. He said alcoholics use
excuses to drink. It hit me square in the face.
I used to use my wife as an excuse, but she was gone. I used to use my kids as an excuse, but they
were gone. I used to use my neighbors as
an excuse, but I was living in 40 acres of woods, so I couldn’t blame my
neighbors—there were none. I used to use
my job as an excuse, but I was a teacher on summer vacation, so I could not use
my job as an excuse. Every excuse that I had ever used was
gone and I was still drunk. It was then
that I finally accepted the fact that I am an alcoholic. I admitted
total defeat and begged God for help.
He took away my addiction to alcohol.
I was looking at Sallman’s picture of Christ (the picture with 7 symbols
painted into it) and crying like a baby because of all the bad things I had
done—but also crying in joy because I knew that something special had
happened. The compulsion to drink had
been lifted from me and it has never returned. joined AA, and it is Jesus who has saved me. About two
months later I returned to work. That
semester I had a Viet Nam Vet student (6’3” 250 lbs.) that was mad about a
grade he got in my class. He put his arm
around my shoulder and said: “It would be a shame, Mr. Goss, if that house you
and your wife built was burned to the ground.” I immediately expelled him and
had a terrific fight with administration when they tried to have him put back
in my class. The administration fired
me. The teacher’s union backed me and
the case was tried locally and I lost.
The union appealed and the case was tried at the Appellate Court—we
lost. The case was put on the docket for
the Wisconsin Supreme Court. When a case
like this goes through the courts in Wisconsin, everyone knows about it. I got a job at Kimberly Clark in Neenah, WI
and when things went good for our case, the job got tougher, when things went
bad for our case, the job got easier.
After about two years at Kimberly Clark, I was fired.
When I
joined AA for real, I asked Les to be my sponsor. It was one of the smartest things I ever
did. Les was my sponsor for 17
years—when he died, I cried like a baby for 3 days—I still remember things he
taught me about staying sober: Do not
ever go more than a week without a meeting.
Keep in touch with him. Do a
fourth and fifth step as soon as possible. When I took my fifth step with Les,
he told me some things from his fifth step that had kept him sober for 6
years—he gave me hope that I could stay sober. Work the HALT program—do not get
too Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired.
After being sober about 3 months I called Les and told him that my work
had considerable strain involved. I
asked him if I could take a tranquilizer.
He said, “Bill, I am not a doctor, but do you want to go through life in
a fog?” He continued, “In AA we use
three things for stress: Music, Prayer,
and Exercise—you look like you are about 40 lbs. overweight—you could use some
exercise.” I went to the Appleton YMCA
and started swimming. I swam three times
a week (Monday, Wednesday, and Friday).
I started swimming a mile and eventually could do a 32-minute mile. I very seldom missed my swimming, no matter
where I was in the US. For 16 years, I
swam every other day. A quick
calculation says I swam 1600 miles. When
my life was threatened by melanoma nodular, an oncologist research specialist
told me to not take the chemo—he said I should run for my life. He said that under the extreme pain while
running, my body would release massive endorphins which were pain killers, but
more importantly, cancer killers. I
became Forrest Gump and ran everywhere.
When my chest was cut open with a six-and-a-half-inch scar, I ran for my
life instead of swimming for my life (35 miles/week)—I ended up running 10
marathons (26.2-mile race), taking 3rd place in my age group at the
Tallahassee Marathon. At 200 miles
training for each marathon the figure is 2,000 miles for all 10 marathons I
ran. I have never taken a tranquilizer
in any form.
Three months
after the incident with the dog, Ginger came home and we went forward. All was rather good for a year or more. I went to AA meetings and did what my sponsor
told me to do to build a solid program and Ginger went to Alanon meetings—all
was very pleasant and I was very happy with Ginger. She then started to complain about the people
in Alanon and then stopped going to meetings—this scared me. She started to come home late while she was
obtaining a master’s in Chicago—she was commuting on weekends—one night she
said that she wanted a divorce. When I
told Les, he said, “Bill, you can’t allow this to go on: she has asked for a
divorce from you at least four times since I have been sponsoring you and this
is not good for your sobriety. If she
wants it, let her have it.” I accepted
the divorce. After many tries to
re-establish my relationship with the children and being repulsed, I gave up
and now, many years later, have a telephone relationship with the
youngest. Of course, I am not welcome at
any of his family functions, which include Ginger’s family.
When Ginger
divorced me, I went to live with my parents near Lake Geneva, WI. Strangely enough I met John, an AA friend of
mine from Green Bay. What is strange is
that neither one of us knew the other was moving to Lake Geneva. John and I spent much of the summer going to
meetings together and double dating.
John got mixed up with some guys that I warned him to avoid—he would not
listen—we eventually went our separate ways.
I was dating Ann L, who was a retired June Taylor dancer and worked on
the Jackie Gleason show. She was about 5
years older than me, but she was in incredible shape. We really enjoyed the summer. We danced competitively at the Wagon Wheel
Lodge (mainly cha-cha). When the summer
ended, I knew that Ginger would be coming after me for money so I got a job as
a programmer at Woolworth’s in Milwaukee and obtained an apartment. Ann was angry that I was moving to Milwaukee
permanently. She was terribly angry! When I called her from Milwaukee and asked
her how John was doing, she said, “Oh, John is dead.” I was shocked and immediately called my
sponsor, Les K. I asked him, “Les, was
John drinking when he committed suicide?”
I will never forget what Les said.
He said, “Bill, I am not God. Maybe God took him to his bosom when John
died. But I will tell you that when John
committed suicide, he was not sober.” At
any AA meeting I go to, if the subject of suicide comes up, I tell the people
what Les said about John and his suicide.
While
working at Woolworth’s, I went to AA meetings regularly, but spent my first
Christmas alone—I missed my three kids. After crying a while, I started to read
the Bible. I read about Joshua bringing
the Hebrews across the Jordan River and I pictured it in my mind’s eye. At that instant I knew I was going to
Israel. There was a shooting war going
on over there, the trip was canceled two or three times, but I was in Israel on
Easter Morning. When I was hired at
Woolworth’s I made the stipulation that I was going to take the day off when my
case was heard at the Supreme Court in Madison.
When the boss heard my request, he smiled as though he knew about the
case, and nodded as though he knew that I did not stand a chance. When the day
came for my hearing, I took the day off and headed for Madison WI. I was sitting in the Supreme Court Room in
Madison, WI when the Chief Justice stated: “We ought to have more teachers like
this man.” I thanked Jesus from the
bottom of my heart. My lawyer called
me, congratulated me, and said that I had changed Wisconsin law. I found out later that Ginger had to release
the news on the radio at her job that I won the case (she was extremely
embarrassed), and Les, my AA sponsor told me when I said that I would win the
case; he thought that I was just another raving alcoholic. He said that he was
stunned when he heard the news on television.
When I got back to Woolworth’s, I was fired but Bud Becker, the vice
president of Informatics, NY, hired me on the spot for a job at CNA in Chicago,
IL. I worked for Bud Becker for the next
10 years—he fired me and rehired me at least 10 times—twice with a raise.
Moving to
the Chicago area, I picked out a small house in Palatine IL and attended AA
meetings at the Palatine Club. One of my
female friends at the Palatine Club was a stewardess for American Airlines and
she was taking pilot lessons. When I
told her that I envied her, she said, “You can become a pilot, anybody can
become a pilot. The lessons aren’t that
expensive and the tests are not that difficult.” Because I was making good money as a contract
programmer and had money left over from the sale of our house in Glendale
Heights, IL, I began taking the lessons.
About a year later, I had earned my pilot’s license and was flying
around the Midwest. It went to my head
and I started dating many women.
While at the
Palatine Club, I sponsored two people:
Don W, who I was extremely proud to sponsor because he had won the
Silver Star in Viet Nam. After we got to
know each other, he told me that he had applied to thirty police departments
when he got out of the service and because of the Silver Star he was offered a
job at every one of the departments. He
told me that he respected me for becoming an officer in the Air Force and becoming
a pilot in Palatine. Don was eventually
offered a scholarship from Harvard University in drugs and alcohol counseling
and went out east where we lost track of each other. Another of my sponsees was Joe C. At the very first meeting with him I was
chairing the meeting and there were about 17 people around the table. When about 15 of them had shared, it was
Joe’s turn. He almost shouted, “I hate
all you bastards!” About seven people
got up and left the table. My reaction
was one of humor. I leaned back on my
chair and said to myself, “This guy has hope, how honest can you get?” I believe I said to him, “Relax, I’ll talk to
you after the meeting.” After the
meeting we had a talk which encouraged him and he asked me to be his
sponsor. I was his sponsor for 31
years—I have moved around the country and have tried to keep in touch, but
Joe’s job also has him moving around the country and he is better off with a
local sponsor—he is in Chicago and I am in Indianapolis—the last I heard he was
doing O.K.
While living
in Palatine IL, I worked at various projects for Informatics, NY. Three of the projects that standout most in
my mind were FMC Chicago, White Motors, Mundelein, IL, and Allstate, North
Brook, IL. FMC stands out in my mind
because of a man by the name of Robin Griffin.
I met Robin while working in data processing at FMC in Chicago (I was
working for Informatics and he was working for EDS). He would come into the office every morning
singing “Blue Bayou.” At the time I
remember thinking that he had a beautiful voice, but that he was an “uppity
negro.” I did not like him. At a coffee
break one day Robin asked me if I played tennis and I said yes. He then said, “You should come over some time
and we’ll play some tennis, take a shower and have lunch.” I then had even a worse mental opinion of
Robin. I asked him how long he had
played, and he said about six months. I
said that I did not play with people with six months experience because it
ruins your game. After working with him
for another month I got to know him better that he was happily married and had
a child. Then I decided I was safe to go over to Robin’s house and I played 24
games with him. He won 24 games. I then knew that I was in the presence of
athlete greatness. He told me that he
was a running back at Syracuse and when he turned pro, he played for Tom Landry
with the Cowboys. It was while he was with the Cowboys in Dallas that he
met Ross Perot, the owner of EDS (Electronic Data Systems). He told me of
how he was cut from the team because he pointed out the same as Bennie Barnes,
but Tom Landry had to go with Barnes because Barnes was a Dallas boy. Robin also shared that intercepting Staubach
during scrimmage did not help him with the Cowboys. After he got out of football,
he went to work for Ross at EDS. We
became close—like brothers. We took all our breaks together, including lunch—we
would walk around the Chicago loop and I would get a thrill out of people
yelling from passing cars, “Hey Robin, how are you doing?” One time the surprise was on Robin. We were down in the Loop when two black guys
came running up to me, one of them yelling: “Hey, coach. Hey, coach.” I have been told many times that I look a lot
like Mike Ditka. The people on my
father’s side came from the same area that Ditka’s parents came from. We are supposed to have some long--distance
relationship to his family. This was in
1985, when the Bears were on their way to the Super Bowl. Anyway, the other black kid said, “Shut up,
stupid. He’s too short to be
Ditka.” We all got a big laugh out of
it. Robin was eventually promoted to being our project leader of about 17
people. When he was offered a good job back East, he recommended me to be
the project leader and I was promoted. Obviously, we were good friends,
and respected each other’s professionalism.
Not too long after Robin was gone, we had a visit from one of the boys
from Detroit (he was in a silver silk suit) that was not very flattering to
him. It was not too long after that the
project was sold to his company and I left very angry.
In anger I
stormed out of FMC, called my son Patrick, and we jumped on a plane and flew to
Tampa on President’s day. I called Bud
Becker in New York and told him I quit at FMC, was in Tampa on vacation, and
needed money. He said, “You have some
nerve. You take yourself off a project,
fly to Florida, and call me for money on President’s day”—he sent the
money. When I got back to Chicago, I was
sent to White Motors as a DOS elementary programmer. Within a month, I was the running the OS
programming at White Motors as the project leader. Emmett Moore was the client’s project manager
at White Motors (eventually bought by Volvo), and after I solved a serious
problem for him in his inventory system, he put me in charge of 23 people (head
project leader) and he made the statement, “As far as I am concerned, you walk
on water.” He had me running multiple projects both in the Chicago area
and the Cleveland Ohio area for the next year and a half—he had me doing the
hiring and firing at both locations.
Emmett left White Motors to accept a job at Allstate, Northbrook,
IL. He got a particularly good job where
he reported directly to the Chairman of the Board. Emmett used me for several extremely sensitive
projects at Allstate, where more than several people were fired, and where a
contract company was removed from Allstate solely on my advice. He had me train Tallmadge Smith, a student at
Northwestern University, working for the summer at Allstate. When
Tallmadge went back to school in the fall, I cried, on the first 2 days because
I missed him.
Because of my friendship with Robin at FMC, years later I landed a two-year
contract at GM in Kokomo, IN, when GM bought EDS—at GM Ross Perot was running
everything—and the question was going around: “Who bought who? I met Ross Perot at General Motors in
Kokomo. There were 10 of us contract
programmers at GM that were brought into Kokomo from Chicago. Ross came into Kokomo and had all of us
contract programmers meet in the auditorium.
At 5’5” tall he had a lot of nerve to tell 250 contract programmers (at
an average of 25 dollars an hour) that in 6 months from that date, they would
either be an employee of EDS or they would be gone. Because I knew Robin (who knew my work) who
knew Ross Perot, I was the only contractor from Chicago that was retained by GM
as a contract programmer. What is interesting to me is that I had met two of
the most powerful men in the country, Ross Perot and Henry Crowne, and they
were both 5’5” tall.
After
renting planes, mostly Cessna’s or Pipers for about 7 years, I decided to build
a plane that would be fast. After
researching many kits for building a plane, I decided that the best plane for
me would be the KR2. The plane took
about 5 years to build. The KR2 is built for speed. Cessna’s and Pipers cruise
at about 90 knots--the KR2 cruises at about 245 knots. My logic for building the KR2 was
unchallengeable: I had built a boat, a
15-foot runabout with a 60 hp motor; a house; and many model airplanes. My reasoning was that if the KR2 kit was
anything like the models I built and flew, it could be done. Many Airplane
magazines that I bought showed completed kits and planes built from
scratch. In addition, a mile from my
house was a guy who had a shop with many customers and had built a KR2. I
bought the kit and began to build the plane.
The plane was also a selling tool.
To a potential customer I would state, “How many contract programmers
have you spoken to that put their lives on the line by flying a plane that they
built and requires one to follow directions exactly?” When it came time to do
high altitude testing, I realized that I should use a parachute—I rented one
from the airport. On Memorial Day in
1990, before taking off in the KR2 (experimental airplane), I said a prayer to
Jesus, “Jesus, you know I am crazy and I know that I am crazy. Please watch over me.” Five minutes later,
after the airplane crashed, my leg was severely injured (it needed 300 stitches
to put it back together again). My back
was black and blue—the parachute had probably saved my life. When they were wheeling me into the operating
room, the nurse said, “Nobody knows why you are alive. God must have a plan for you.” (Two years
previous I had asked Jesus to help me give Chris a baby girl.) At that point in time, I cried like a baby
because I knew that God was going to give Chris and myself a daughter. With Jesus’ help, after the first day using
Darvon, I used Tylenol for the next nine weeks (at night to sleep) while my leg
was mending—this experience has helped me in countless other situations where
painkillers were tempting.
When my
father was alive, he said to me, “For 14 years you have gone through women like
changing socks.” I never missed church on Sunday, but it is a miracle that I
never came down with some form of STD, because my sex life was insane. I did such things as joining Parents without
Partners, Singles Groups, and even Christian Groups for Singles. Subsequently, I have read that such a life is
another symptom of alcoholism without drinking.
When I told all of this to Joe C, who I was sponsoring and who was
reading a newspaper at the time, I thought that he was going to react like I
was a hero or some sort of super stud.
Instead, without even looking up from his newspaper, he said, “It sounds
like an awful amount of pain to me.” I
was stunned. He was exactly right. The beginning, middle, and end of each
relationship were horrible. Going home
and waking up the next morning, while I was saying my morning prayers, I said
to God the Father, “I have been praying for 14 years. When are you going to
give me a wife?” I definitely heard,
“When you are ready!” I said,
“O.K.” The following week at a Phoenix
Christian group meeting I met my present wife—we celebrated 25 years of
marriage on July 1, 2015 (actually, by the advice of a priest, we lived
together for 2 years before getting married).
When I had
been sober, for about 10 years a friend of mine (we played racket ball
together) and I went to an AA meeting in Palatine, IL. At the meeting, my friend kept talking about
being battered as a child. As the
meeting went on and he kept talking, I was getting madder and madder at
him. When the meeting was over, I went
home and called my sponsor and said, “Doug I was at a meeting today with
Richard and all he did was talk about being battered as a kid. What the hell is wrong with him? He should be talking about alcoholism!” Doug said, “You are wrong, Bill. He should talk about anything that helps keep
him sober. Another thing, did you know
that 98 % of all people on death-row were battered as children?” I realized that was a reason why I had
trouble trusting men in AA.
Doug had me
read a book called I‘m OK,
You’re OK. It talked about 4 or
5 personalities, one of which is “I ‘m OK, You’re OK.” This is a healthy personality. Another is “I ‘m OK, You‘re not OK.” This is the personality of the person who was
beaten and maltreated as a child. This
person has serious anger problems as an adult.
When I was fourteen years old, my older sister was teasing me and had me
locked out of the house. I went around
the side of the house and jimmied an open window and crawled into the
house. As my back foot hit the floor, I
was hit in the face with a backhand that knocked me unconscious—it was my
father who hit me. He later shared with
my mother that he was afraid that he had killed me—he said my legs were
twitching. Remembering that incident
stopped me cold. I suddenly realized why
I had trouble trusting not only women, but also men in AA. I am sure that there are thousands of men who
have experienced violence like that. One
other thing, my sponsor asked me a question.
He asked, “I thought you said that your father worked nights?” I said, “yeah, so what?” He asked me a question that I will never
forget: “What was he doing home at 3 pm in the afternoon and why did not he
intervene in the trouble you were having with your sister?” I felt like I had been punched in the
stomach—it was apparent that the whole situation was a setup. The answer is that my father wanted an excuse
to batter me—I found out later that he was also battered as a child. Battered children many times grow up to be
Batterers.
During those
14 years I married 4 women outside the church (one I married twice and divorced
her twice)—I felt that the marriages were invalid and would easily be
annulled. I told the girls that I
considered the marriages to be little more than an engagement, and that when
they were ready to make it final, we could get married in the Catholic Church.
I fully admit that my attitude was that of a chauvinistic male and these poor
women had no idea of what they were getting into.
It was Chris
Stuhrberg that listened to me. She arranged
that I get counselling on how to stay married and finished all the
arrangements—it really turned out to be a great marriage in in Lake Zurich, IL
where almost all the guests came from Amoco (where I worked as a contract
programmer for three years). Jesus
helping us, on July 1, 2015, we celebrated 25 years of a holy Christian
marriage.
After being
married to Chris for 25 years and going through the problems that Chris and I
have gone through together that we live in a Christian relationship and I am profoundly
grateful to be in a Christian marriage. I fully admit that my behavior was poor
to say the least. In my Story I talk about the fact that Chris has not missed
going to church once in the 25 years that we have been married. When we were in Church on Palm Sunday we were
singing, “Were you there when they crucified my Lord?” As we were singing, I heard Chris
sniffing. Looking at her, I saw that she
was crying every time something bad happened to the Lord in the song. I could not help it—I began to cry.
In addition,
I ran 10 marathons all over Florida and Chris was there for every race—she
spurred me on in the Tallahassee Marathon to win third place in my age
group. Chris helped me build our first
house in Lakeland, FL from the ground up to putting the shingles on the roof
when the daily temperature hit 95 degrees and she never complained once.
Life did not
become Utopia after Chris and I got married.
As mentioned earlier, In October of ’92 I was diagnosed with melanoma
nodular and given 7 months to live—that was a death sentence to me. Later in the year, we had a horrible winter,
and in January ’93, there was a massacre at the Palatine Brown’s Chicken (7
people killed—it went unsolved for 9 years) 5 blocks from our house in
Palatine, IL. My first reaction was to get Chris and Chrissy down South before
I died. We quit our jobs, sold our house in Palatine, and moved to Lakeland
Florida in March of ’94. With my
building experience in Wisconsin (with Ginger) I started to build my second
house in Lakeland with Chris. It took
us approximately 5 months to build the house and move in. I was able to get some programming jobs in
Florida, but when the KR2 crashed, my sales pitch took a terrible nosedive. Clients would now think I was just another 53-year-old
contract programmer, but now I was a contract programmer that had crashed a
plane that I had built—maybe I should have been more careful building the plane
and more careful in implementing the plans. Maybe I would now miss an important
part of their new system going in and screw the whole thing up! I kept training
for marathons, working as a substitute teacher, and contractor programmer wherever
possible for the next 5 years. I kept
plugging and, in the summer of 2000,, I went to work for AIC in Indianapolis
IN. My project was at Lilly. When the contract began, there was money to
burn—we all had the best of equipment, including colored phones on our desks. When the project was nearing its end, Lilly
and AIC started playing money games. Now
they were trying to squeeze blood out of a turnip. AIC would not make a
commitment for any further work—we just had to use our own money to stay in
Indianapolis until AIC and Lilly signed a new contract, which was not going to
be done for a while. I quit, took my
family, and went back home to Florida.
AIC said that because I quit, they would not pay unemployment. Florida refused to pay me the
unemployment. Three Florida lawyers
refused to take my case—they said that there was no way that I could win. With Jesus’ help I kept digging and found a
lawyer that gave me some tips. I went
ahead and did the research online.
Practicing Jesus’ presence at the meeting, I participated at the hearing
(phone hearing) alone and won the case. Thank
you, Jesus.
It was also
during this time that it became apparent that most companies do not like to
hire men as a programmer when they hit 49 years old. I came up with a new gimmick—it was running
marathons. I would stress at every
interview that I was running marathons and that I took third place at the
Tallahassee Marathon in my age group. For
a man to run a marathon, he has to be in very good shape and have a lot of
stamina (this is true). I ran and trained for marathons continuously. I ended up running 10 marathons and had more
contracts coming my way—some of the companies even allowed me to train on their
property—AT&T graciously allowed me to train at every site I worked
at. This all worked fine until I hit the
age of 59—now it was almost impossible to get a job. Then Jesus put Eddie Duffy into my life as my
new sponsor.
Eddie (5’
8”) was the toughest man I ever met—he was a “screw” at Rikers Island, NY. He was half Irish and half Italian. When I met him, he had 25+ years of sobriety
and was a leader in the local AA groups in Florida. He told me that when he went to work in New
York, 280 people wanted to see him dead (the inmates that reported to him). He had retired and moved to Lakeland, FL.
When I got into an altercation with a truck driver on Christmas Eve (2000) and
quietly told the truck driver to get out of his truck, the truck driver could
see that I was insane and begged off.
The next morning, I realized that either the truck driver or I could have
been seriously injured, or maybe killed in the fight—I was afraid that if I
went to jail that maybe I couldn’t stay sober and called Eddie to tell him I
was scared to death—he said to me, “Don’t worry, Bill. Just don’t drink and go to meetings.” He told me the following story. “The last time we were in Vegas and saw the
Tyson-Holyfield fight, we were coming out of the Arena and an Andy Frain usher
pushed my niece. When I grabbed him by
the throat and pinned him to the wall, a Vegas cop came along and asked, “What
the hell do you think you are doing?”
Eddie said that he flashed his badge and said, “If you touch me, I am
going to turn this guy off.” Eddie said
that when things cooled off, the usher apologized for pushing his niece and
everyone went their separate way. Again,
he said, “Just don’t drink and go to meetings.”
Thinking that I had been sober for 20+ years and Eddie had been sober
for 30+ years, this was not acceptable.
I called Eddie the next day and said, “Eddie, you know that I love you—when
Chris and I were in serious financial trouble, you got us disability, which
helped save our house. When I ran my
first marathon and was ready to quit on the day of the race, you said, “You
trained for a year—you might as well try it—you might even do better than you
think you would do.” You have helped me
in more ways than I can count, but I have a serious problem with anger and I
think you have a serious problem with anger.
I am going to get a sponsor that can help me with anger and I think it
would be a good idea for you to get a sponsor that could help you with
anger.” He tried to joke it off and
said, “I think you are making too much of this, but I wish you luck.” The next time Eddie went out to Las Vegas, he
came back in a pine box. His wife
refused to talk about what happened and refused to let us talk about AA at the
funeral. This whole story showed me that
no matter how many years I am sober, I will need a spiritual advisor and that I
should make at least one AA meeting a week.
In 2001 Doug
Hess, my third sponsor, an ex-marine, after five years of knowing me and
hearing my story, said,” The Air Force gave you the shaft and we are going
after them.” I said, “Doug, I thought the Big Book says that we stop fighting
anyone or anything.” He said, “We did
not join AA to be a floor mat, and I am your sponsor—we are going after them.”
He had me file a disability claim.
In 2003 the
neighbor down the block ran into some bad times. His wife died, he lost his job, and his
teenagers went wild. There was many a
day that the smell of marijuana would waft down the street from his house and a
little later one of his teenage sons would come roaring down the street in a
noisy car or on a motorcycle. Drugs had
seemed to have taken a bad turn in Florida.
A cop told me the problem was that about half of the cops were on the
take, so you really did not know who you were talking to when they came out to
investigate any disturbances. If you
were talking to the wrong person, you were apt to be quickly visited again by
the people that you were complaining about to the police. Also, though I really enjoyed training for
marathons, teaching as a substitute teacher, and an occasional data processing
contract, we were starving. While complaining to my Vet Rep at James Haley VA
hospital, Tampa, FL, about my situation and the USAF, he said that if what
happened to me had happened to him, he would think about legal action. He planted the seed. In 2002 I started the legal action against
the military which would take 10 years to complete—it was brutal.
If one were
to do a google search for “Viet Nam Vet and Suicide” the result would be that
there have been close to 100,000 Viet Nam Vets that have committed suicide,
mostly since returning home. I am a Viet
Nam Vet, who obtained 3 years of education, including college level work with a
B average in the USAF, obtained a BS in math, an MA in math, and was the first
student in the history of Kent College of Law, Chicago to have 2 legal briefs
put on display in the Law Library, was nominated to the Air Force Academy, by
Senator Dirksen, IL, was elected the Vice Commander of War Veterans Post 1917,
Lakeland FL, in 2002, and then the Full Commander of War Veterans Post 1917,
Lakeland, FL in 2003 (men who faced death on the battlefield elected me their
Commander).
During our
10-year quest for a VA disability, we lost our house in Florida, we lost our
daughter due to a drastic drop in our income and her losing a chance to go to
good schools both in Florida and Indiana—being 65 years old did not help
obtaining employment in my old career field, data processing. The VA was not
generous to say the least. For example,
when we attempted to use the SSA disability findings for a basis for a VA
disability, which we sent to the VA, we waited one year for results and
submitted a request to the VA asking what the problem was. The VA responded with they never received the
SSA “or
it was lost.” After we requested a
copy of the SSA from Social Security and offered to send it to the VA our
request was refused. Asking why the
offer was refused the VA responded that the copy we were willing to submit
could very well have been forged—that SSA documents had forged in the
past. A call to Senator Nelson, FL was
the only way that we got the VA to move at a critical point in our case. As stated earlier, the attempt to get a VA
disability was extremely stressful and nerve shattering. The supposed people and organizations
designed and organized to defend and help the disabled veteran dropped off of
the project quite early in the fight, leaving us alone to write the appeals to
the Board of Veteran Appeals (four of them in all). The tension during that 10-year battle was
horrible. During the fight for our VA
disability, going to a dentist was too costly and grinding my teeth became a
real problem. What is ironic is the VA has recently criticized my bruxism as
though it is a nasty habit that I sometime, somewhere else in my life developed
when I asked them to fix my teeth after I won the disability. There have been 5 or 6 civilian dentists that
have recommended a major restructure of my teeth and gums, but the VA has
denied giving me any such changes or help for my mouth, as though I was the
guilty person responsible for my poor dental health.
In 2004 we
had 4 hurricanes go through Lakeland, FL.
Three of them were not too bad, but Jean was another story. Hurricane Jean (Sept of 2004) was coming
through Lakeland and the watery driven winds were reaching to 60 or 70
miles/hr. Chris, Chrissy, and I held
hands and prayed to the Father in Jesus’ name that He watch over us. When Jean passed through, she had damaged the
roof of every house around ours and even tore down some pool houses. She also destroyed a good part of Widow Margaret’s
house (inside) after tearing the roof off.
The four houses closest to us all had to have their roofs replaced as a
minimum. The only damage to our property
was that an old rotten tree lost a large branch—we later cut the tree
down. It might have been our attitude,
but it also seemed like Florida was getting hotter earlier and staying hotter
longer each year. In late 2005 we were
ready to move. The financial situation,
the weather (hurricanes and hot temperatures), and drug problems seemed overwhelming.
In 2006 we
sold the home that we built in Lakeland FL and moved to Zionsville, IN. We
bought a house in Zionsville. I
continued training for marathons, and became an active substitute teacher in
the local suburbs, and I continued writing the law briefs for my legal case
against the VA. I continued writing the
briefs for four more incredibly difficult years and 99% of the time I would ask
the Father in Jesus’ name if He liked what I wrote. If the answer was, “Yes.” It remained.
During the
10-year battle with the VA for my disability, being over 60+ years old, the only
employment that I could obtain was to be a substitute teacher. My wife worked to help the family. My
daughter was extremely unhappy about our being reduced to actual paupers—she
left the house when she became 18 and never returned.
On February
5, 2010 I worked at Stokes Elementary and a horrific snowstorm hit that
day. After work I spent about an hour
plowing and shoveling out the driveway.
When Chris and Chrissy came home, Chris said that I had some mail. It turned out to be the printed reports from
the VA. In the reports Dr. Bhagar
states, “50 % or more probability that each diagnosed disability is the result
of injury or disease incurred or aggravated in the service…” Dr. Bhagar also states, “This illness first
manifested itself while he was in the service.
There is no record of him having [problems] prior to his military
service.” The doctor also says, “He
continued to drink while in service and he received a DUI in 1965. There is more than 50% probability that its
course worsened for him during his 2nd tour, due to the rejection of
not being allowed to become a pilot, (before the DUI in 1965) and the
harassment (after the DUI).” It took
almost 10 years to have the VA admit that I have a service-connected
disability. The second highest appellate
court in the land found in my favor and granted me a disability because of the
atrocious behavior of 4 high ranking officers in the Air Force. Six months
later, the disability was raised to 100%.
With all income considered, my pensions are equivalent to that of a
Captain who flew for 20 years in the Air Force and retired—exactly what I
wanted when I re-entered the USAF.
Talking to Chris and Chrissy about the present situation and that there
is probably going to be a considerable amount of money received for the service-connected
disability and the 10 years of strife with the VA, it occurred to me that God
had brought this about so that we (Chris, Chrissy, Patrick, and his family, and
I) would be able to go to Jerusalem—I cried with joy. Early the next morning (say about 4:00 am) I
got up to go to the bathroom and started reading a book that I have been
reading, Soul Harvest, a
religious book by Tim LaHaye and Jerry B. Jenkins. When I got to page 169 the author talks about
a hospital in Palatine, Illinois (where Chris and I lived) and Kenosha,
Wisconsin (where GMC 11 took place when we were living in Palatine). What are the odds of an author mentioning
these two locations? These two locations
were separated by only one sentence. I
told Chris that if God was not telling us that the thought that I had was real
about Jerusalem, He was telling us that He is totally in charge!
On
Wednesday, May 12, 2010, the subject for the meditation for the day in Daily Reflections was “THE PAST IS
OVER.” When I read it, I said, “Are you
trying to tell me something, Lord?” We
had been waiting for over 9 years for the VA to determine if and how much my
service-connected disability would be and end the 45 years of nastiness caused
by the alleged DUI mentioned above. That
night I jokingly said to Chris, “Do you think that God the Father has been
holding back the disability money until you make a Cursillo?” A Cursillo, or in this
case “Great
Banquet” is an extremely intensive retreat. It is so emotionally draining that one needs
to be sponsored to the retreat. The
following night I took Chris to the three-day retreat. The following morning, I was getting ready
for work and I scanned our bank account.
There were a lot of zeroes there!
The money was there! It was the back-pay from the VA for the 10-year
legal battle which I had won. Thank you,
Jesus.
LG was my 12-year-old,
110 lb., German shepherd, who did exactly what he wanted to do when he wanted
to do it. We got him at a shelter, 3 hours before he was to be put
down. We named him Let Go and Let God (LG for short). A short story. We were in St. Augustine
(about 175 miles from our home in Lakeland, FL), when he was about 3 years
old and he ran off. We thought he was gone for good—at the time, I had
mixed emotions (I was mad at him, but as time went on, I felt bad).
At about 9:00 p.m. our room phone rang and a woman in the lobby was wondering
if we had lost our dog! As it turns
out, she worked at a restaurant down the street and found LG digging in the garbage
and noticed his tags from Lakeland (knew he was from out of town and
started calling all the hotels and motels in the area, asking if anyone was
missing a German shepherd). Being pretty and probably quite busy with
life, I asked her why she did such a nice deed. She said that she
belonged to a fellowship which believed in doing good acts and not being found
out! I asked her, "Are you a friend of Bill Wilson?" She
said, "Why, yes. Are you?"
When LG was 12 years old, he was extremely sick and lying in the living
room. I walked up to him and said, “Hey,
LG how are you doing? He licked my hand
as if to say good-bye (I am crying right now) and he walked out into the yard
and lay down and died. When we got our
new puppy, I asked Chris if we should name him “LG” and she said, “No, there
was only one LG”. So, we named him LT, for L-Two, or my rank in the
Air Force, or in Roman Numerals, 52, or added together “7,” my incredibly lucky
number. I was just telling Chris that he is the happiest dog I have ever
seen. He just goes crazy when we let him outside in the snow—he uses his nose
as sort of like a snowplow and runs across the yard scooping all the snow
aside. He is constantly chasing Chris and nipping at her pants, with Chris
yelling at him.
To recap, my
pensions are now equivalent to that of a Captain (due to winning the 10-year
legal battle with the VA at the second highest appellate court in the US and
eventually awarded a 100% disability because of the inexcusable behavior of 4
senior officers in SAC, Air Force), which it would have been had I become a
pilot in the USAF and stayed for 20 years. Since winning the legal case, we
have gone to Israel three times, Orlando, FL at least 3 or 4 times, Memphis,
TN, Washington DC and were able to stay in some really nice hotels. We owe it all to Jesus.